how did i get here?

do you ever have those days when it feels like nothing is the way it should be? maybe it's the rain, or the cold, maybe it's me, maybe it's being lonely even though i'm surrounded, maybe it's feeling bored even though i have plenty i could do, maybe it's feeling like i want to hide my head, crawl into bed and block out the world. i just feel like i'm waiting. waiting for something to happen, waiting for someone come, waiting for something to do, waiting for something to want, waiting.